It’s super late (Well, 10:37pm) and normally I don’t like to publish my blog posts this late on in the evening, I like to get them out at a time when people are actually awake.. But I guess that difers for everyone. I haven’t written a chatty post in ages, and I feel it’s about time. When I first started this blog it was mostly just lots and lots of diary entries and I really enjoyed writing those posts, now I just am too tired everyday to come home and write about my day.
I really miss writing diary style posts, I keep saying I’m going to try and write more but I don’t feel like I do? What do you think, do I write enough chatty posts or would you like to see more? Please let me know in the comments. I know for a fact I want to write more, I might set up a schedule so that each week every Monday and Thursday, no matter what I’ve done or how I felt that day I write everything up on this blog. Okay, that’s my goal from now on. Monday’s and Thursdays are going to be dedicated to CHATTY POSTS! Yay. 🌞
Although today’s Tuesday but hey ho, that reminds me, I haven’t done my Tag Tuesday today :O what a disgrace! I’ll definitely be back at it again next week, I promise.
I could blame tiredness, but I feel like thats all I talk about these days, or its always my excuse. But really, I’m now working my first proper full time job and I’ve never been so sleepy. The thought of waking up early tomorrow morning is breaking my heart. I’m sure I’ll get used to it soon but I tell you what, I long for the day I can work for myself. That would honestly be a dream, I could wake up whenever I wanted to and get ready in my own time. I could schedule meetings for the times that I wanted and I could holiday whenever! Although I’ll admit, I am so so lucky with my working hours right now. A three day weekend every month? That’s amazing. If I wanted to, I could go on weekend breaks to different cities in Europe once a month and not even have to use any of my vacation days. Yassss.
But enough work talk already, b o r i n g! Let’s talk about other stuff, boys perhaps? Every gals favourite topic, although I do try steer clear of talking about my ex too much because y’know, I don’t want to be one of those girls whose life revolves around a man, but this is my blog in fairness and I’ll talk about whatever I want 😊
So boys, my ex. Ah yes, the ex who gets a lot of posts dedicated to him on this blog. How weird is that? He probably doesn’t even know he’s being written about, yet here I am, writing about him. I wonder if anyone ever writes about me?
So my ex dropped me a text a couple of weeks ago, even though hes blocked he used a website to text me. Weird? I think so.. Glad he did it? I guess so. Things are going okay, although he did let me down. He made a big deal of meeting up with me last Monday but then when it came to it, the plans fell through. He didn’t mention it and I sure as heck wasn’t going to, I am not going to chase him. I didn’t let him know I was annoyed, but trust me next time he tries to make plans with me I’mma tell him exactly how it is. Other than that though, he’s good. He’s making small efforts, (baby steps eh)? If I take a while to reply to him, he will always double text me which makes me happs. To me that shows he wants me to reply, he wants us to talk. I’m going to see how it goes for the next few weeks, but if he hasn’t made plans to see me by June I’m going to dive in and say something. We text every single day, but the only other people I text everyday are my best mates who I see at least twice a week. So I’m not intersted in having daily conversations if he isn’t going to make plans to see me. He’s gonna have to work, because I’m stronger now. I don’t fall at his feet like I once did, he’s not my whole world anymore. And you know what? That feels so good 🌞
To be honest, there’s a lot more I want to talk about tonight. Not just work and boys. I wanna talk about family, friendship, dreams and aspirations. Okay now I have a new plan, along with my journal posts on a Monday and Thursday I’m going to reserve Wednesdays for deep, chatty posts about any topic that takes my fancy. I’m not sure whether I will start that tomorrow, or next week. And I don’t know if I will always follow this schedule since I don’t want to feel restricted on this blog, but I’m going to keep it as a guideline.
If you’ve read all this, then thankyou! Please leave a comment below with any topics you would like me to chat about here 🙂
Lots of love, J xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx