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Falling out of love. â¤ï¸

I’m not sure you’re what I want anymore.

How can I love you, how can I want you when I don’t even know you? I haven’t seen you in months, the daily texts are not enough. It’s like talking to a stranger, someone who I’ve never even met. I’ve never been interested in online relationships but now this is what it feels like. The only people I talk to everyday are my best friends, people who I see at least twice a week. So why are we exchanging texts like it’s going out of fashion? Why do we do this when it never ever goes any further?

And now I don’t even know if I want this to go further. I want you in my life, I want you by my side. But do I want to marry you? Do I want to travel with you? I’m not sure if I want that sort of future with you. But will friendship ever be enough? Will we ever find a suitable place in each others lives or are we better off far away from each other?

I love you, I think. But like I said, I don’t know you anymore. The memories we have are ones I will cherish forever. You are my first love. But there are so many beautiful people out there, I don’t know if I’d be settling with you or settling for you. But how can I possibly know anything, when I’m not with you.

I have no doubt that if we spent enough days together, I could fall for you over and over again. I couldn’t help myself, you make me laugh and smile. But I don’t know if you are who I want to fall in love with. I don’t know if I want this.

Things would have been so much simpler if we had ended when we ended.

But you’re a part of me now, as much as my hands and legs and eyes and soul are a part of me.

I never want to hurt you, but you hurt me remember? You broke up with me, you broke my heart. Why should I feel guilty now if I say goodbye to you?

If you want a future for us, you are going to have to work to keep us alive. I’m losing interest…

By 50shad3s0fjay

Hello everyone my name is JENNIE! Follow me on my journey of happiness and love ❤️❤️

2 replies on “Falling out of love. â¤ï¸”

Thanks hun, glad you can relate, although hope youre okay?? Ps when u hit 100 followers did you do a post about 100 things that make you happy? Because im going to do a ’10 pics that make me happy’ post to celebrate 100 followers so wanted to link to your blog because its kind of similar to what you did! X

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