Hello everyone and happy (belated) new year… I know I am v v late to the party in wishing everyone here on the blogosphere a happy new year however, better late than never right?
2019 so far has been brilliant, I saw in the new year with two of my best friends at local nightclub Popworld and for someone who isn’t the greatest fan of NYE, I am so happy to announce that this night was one of my favourite New Years of all time… I started my 2019 off in the BEST way; I participated in the conga, sold one of Chantal’s cigarettes to a random in the smoking area for £10 (just call me Richard Branson jr) and most importantly, I entered into the year with two of my favourite people by my side, Chantal and Holly. ♥
Now, for the past 4 or (maybe) 5 years, I’ve celebrated NYE with my bestie, Emily, but unfortunately this year (last year?) she couldn’t make it. Although she came to pre drinks, she was too poorly to come out out with us girls so therefore I was unable to ring the new year in with her by my side, which is a lil’ sad, but it’s okay because we have so much to look forward to together this year. We may not have seen 2019 in together but we still have a lot of memories to make as besties in the next 12 months which I am SO excited about, and so thankful for.
I am very excited to see what this year brings, and saying goodbye to 2018 feels so good. Entering into the new year, I felt a sense of calm and relief. My mind is clearer and my faith is stronger. I ended 2018 feeling, if I’m honest, unfulfilled, and it’s been that way for a while. Throughout my adult years, as I’ve celebrated New Years Eve each year, I’ve never looked back on my year feeling fully satisfied. Maybe it’s a lack of gratitude and appreciation, but I know I haven’t achieved half as much as I could have done in these past few years had I remained focused and to be brutally honest, not stressed over BOYS.
Phew, relationship drama is one thing I’m well and truly leaving in my past. It’s just not worth it you know!? My whole adult life I’ve spent stressing over relationships and it’s nobody’s fault but my own, sure, ex boyfriends / lovers / whatever you want to call them may not have been the nicest but it’s not THEIR fault that I let them get to me, I did that to myself by allowing them to have that power over me. And for that I say no longer. I’m focusing on me and I’m not losing sight of that. This year, I am my priority. And that’s not to say that I don’t want certain relationships to flourish (because yes, I am seeing someone right now) however I need to let go of that neediness / unhealthy obsession of stressing over if / how / when it will work out, etc etc. At the end of the day, what’s meant to be will always find its way. Stressing over a boy isn’t going to determine our future, but it will put strain on the relationship and on myself, and that’s not good for anybody.
This year I intend to live my best life dedicated to doing all the things I love, and all the things I’ve always said I’m going to do. If I have a vision, I’m going to proceed with it, I’m going to work hard and keep focusing on my goals, which include being successful in both career and personal life. When I say successful, I mean successfully happy. Have I had a beautiful day with my family today? Yes,
check, success. There we go. Being happy, and spending quality with my nearest and dearest is what success means to me this year. Being proud of myself, loving myself, and being happy with the people who make me happy is what I’m all about this year, and I’m so excited to see it through!
I hope everyone has the most beautiful 2019, keep focusing on YOU, keep living your best life (whatever that means to you), have fun with your loved ones, surround yourself with the people who make you feel beautiful on the inside and out and keeeeeep smiling. Good things are on the way (and happening at this very moment too)!
Wishing you all lots of love and as always, thank you for reading,