Hello everyone and happy (belated) new year… I know I am v v late to the party in wishing everyone here on the blogosphere a happy new year however, better late than never right?
2019 so far has been brilliant, I saw in the new year with two of my best friends at local nightclub Popworld and for someone who isn’t the greatest fan of NYE, I am so happy to announce that this night was one of my favourite New Years of all time… I started my 2019 off in the BEST way; I participated in the conga, sold one of Chantal’s cigarettes to a random in the smoking area for £10 (just call me Richard Branson jr) and most importantly, I entered into the year with two of my favourite people by my side, Chantal and Holly. ♥
Now, for the past 4 or (maybe) 5 years, I’ve celebrated NYE with my bestie, Emily, but unfortunately this year (last year?) she couldn’t make it. Although she came to pre drinks, she was too poorly to come out out with us girls so therefore I was unable to ring the new year in with her by my side, which is a lil’ sad, but it’s okay because we have so much to look forward to together this year. We may not have seen 2019 in together but we still have a lot of memories to make as besties in the next 12 months which I am SO excited about, and so thankful for.
I am very excited to see what this year brings, and saying goodbye to 2018 feels so good. Entering into the new year, I felt a sense of calm and relief. My mind is clearer and my faith is stronger. I ended 2018 feeling, if I’m honest, unfulfilled, and it’s been that way for a while. Throughout my adult years, as I’ve celebrated New Years Eve each year, I’ve never looked back on my year feeling fully satisfied. Maybe it’s a lack of gratitude and appreciation, but I know I haven’t achieved half as much as I could have done in these past few years had I remained focused and to be brutally honest, not stressed over BOYS.
Phew, relationship drama is one thing I’m well and truly leaving in my past. It’s just not worth it you know!? My whole adult life I’ve spent stressing over relationships and it’s nobody’s fault but my own, sure, ex boyfriends / lovers / whatever you want to call them may not have been the nicest but it’s not THEIR fault that I let them get to me, I did that to myself by allowing them to have that power over me. And for that I say no longer. I’m focusing on me and I’m not losing sight of that. This year, I am my priority. And that’s not to say that I don’t want certain relationships to flourish (because yes, I am seeing someone right now) however I need to let go of that neediness / unhealthy obsession of stressing over if / how / when it will work out, etc etc. At the end of the day, what’s meant to be will always find its way. Stressing over a boy isn’t going to determine our future, but it will put strain on the relationship and on myself, and that’s not good for anybody.
This year I intend to live my best life dedicated to doing all the things I love, and all the things I’ve always said I’m going to do. If I have a vision, I’m going to proceed with it, I’m going to work hard and keep focusing on my goals, which include being successful in both career and personal life. When I say successful, I mean successfully happy. Have I had a beautiful day with my family today? Yes, check, success. There we go. Being happy, and spending quality with my nearest and dearest is what success means to me this year. Being proud of myself, loving myself, and being happy with the people who make me happy is what I’m all about this year, and I’m so excited to see it through!
I hope everyone has the most beautiful 2019, keep focusing on YOU, keep living your best life (whatever that means to you), have fun with your loved ones, surround yourself with the people who make you feel beautiful on the inside and out and keeeeeep smiling. Good things are on the way (and happening at this very moment too)!
Wishing you all lots of love and as always, thank you for reading,
love,
Jennie
♥
50shad3s0fjay 
Loved reading your post! I like how it all just flowed and wasn’t just set into bullet points- I like that too otherwise I’d be a complete hypocrite… cough cough would appreciate if you checked out my goals post haha. But seriously, I love that one of your goals is not to let guys have the power to dictate how you feel. Something I most definitely need to learn, if you pick up any tricks on that topic, would love to know. X
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Thanks lovely! Of course lemme check out your blog (just keep reminding me please haha because I’m on a commenting spree, so I might get distracted LOL). Omg 100%. I promise I will… in fact you’ve inspired me to write a blog post alll about it 😉 xxx
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Haha I’m about to start a commenting spree now! Can’t wait to read the post! Xx
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Go Jennie!! I love your honesty, and I’ve felt the same way for months as well, unfulfilled. So you’re not alone, I almost wonder if it’s some kind of shift, I can bet we’re not the only ones.
Anyway, I hope that 2019 brings you success, happiness, and health! Happy new year my doll!! Don’t let no boy get you down! 😉❤️
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Aw I love your support so much hun! Thank you thank you thank you!
Yeah I’ve read alot recently how last year (2018) was a shifting kinda year, preparing us for 2019. I know we both believe in the Law Of Attraction and I’m sure there’s something to do with that kinda thing about the last year (the moons energies I think).
Thanks so much girlie, if ever I get upset over a boy again I’m coming back to read this post and all the wonderful supportive comments I’ve received to give me a boost, thanks so much honey! HAPPY 2019!
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No problem!!
Hopefully it’s a shift for the better. I mean it seems like we’re heading towards a better future.
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Absolutely!! ❤
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Girl, preach!!! I love reading this. I’m so happy you had such a nice NYE, and it sounds like this is gonna be your year, Jennie! (Also, often when people decide to focus on themselves and not on boys (and alll that dram) is when everything starts to fall in place and the right one does come along 😉 Can’t wait to see what this year brings for you, dear! I also cannot wait to follow along 🙂
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Thanks so much hun ❤ I so hope so! Feels like I've been waiting forever to have a year that I look back on and think, yeah, that was a great year (not to sound like a self pity party here haha I don't feel bad about it at all but you know, I'm ready)! It's so true, everything falls into place when you let go, I think. Thanks so much my love ❤ I'm so excited to see what 2019 brings you!
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Happy New year! Love how this post and how honest and real you were as always ❤ hope you have the best 2019 xx
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Happy New Year hunny! Thank you so much, I hope you do too xxx
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Oh Jennie!! I am so happy to read this new outlook you have for 2019. ♡ No boy is worth the drama!! Forgetting about all that is definitely going to make your year 100x better.
P.S. is it still August boy you’re seeing?! 😄
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Thank you girlie ❤ I agree… no boy is worth losing yourself for, losing valuable time with your friends and family etc etc, 100%. Thanks hun! & yes it is still August Boy, you remembered!! 😀 so cute xxx
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❤ ❤ of course I remembered babe. I am happy you two are still seeing each other! I hope all is going well. Would love to hear an update heheh ;D
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Thanks hun! Ooh I’d love to fill you in, I want to write an update but I’m not sure how considering my blog is not private haha. Do you have any social media?! Like instagram or twitter?
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I don’t really have any social media that I check or am on consistently but I did notice that Pinterest has private messaging and when someone messaged me on there, it went to my phone right away 😀 do you have an account there?! Or you could e-mail me?!
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