Saturday Night Sadness

It feels like my heart is breaking and being ripped in two 😦 I realise I’ve never actually dated a boy who fully wants to commit to me, it’s always ‘I like you but I don’t want a relationship right now’, from the littlest of things to the most extreme “I see myself having kids with you one day, oh, but I’m not looking for anything serious right now”. Oh fuck off, so you want me to wait? You want me to bear your children in a few years down the line, after you’ve played the field and had your cake and eaten it? Honestly, boy bye.

I don’t know what the future holds for August Boy and I (he’s not the one who mentioned children by the way), but all I know is we for sure are not together right now! And it sucks like crazy because I wanna be with him, but I can’t. He wants me now but not forever and I can’t be with someone who doesn’t choose me fully, who doesn’t want to plan a future with me. That’s like saying, you’ll do for now but I can live without you. Nah, I’m worth more than that.

I’d like to remain friends with him because he’s a good guy and I care for him a lot, plus I enjoyed spending time with him so much, but then I enjoyed spending time with him the way we were. It would be different as friends, I wouldn’t be able to kiss him or touch him. We’d be able to hug as friends do but it wouldn’t be the same, and it would just hurt. So I don’t know where we go from here.

So on that note, I guess I’ll just end this blog post with my favourite love quote of all time, the classic Chuck Bass line

”If two people are meant to be together, eventually they’ll find their way back”.

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True. Say. ❤️💙❤️🐬

12 thoughts on “Saturday Night Sadness

  1. I’m really sorry to hear about August Boy! I hope you find clarity and peace with August Boy, regardless of the outcome! Relationships definitely get harder as we get older and I’ve had my fair share of boys telling me that it’s just not the right time or they don’t want anything serious at the moment. It sucks to face that kind of rejection when you’re so emotionally invested in them already.

    Rest up, and take it day by day 🙂 Your favourite quote is absolutely true – if it’s meant to be, it’ll find a way back.

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    1. Hey darling! Thank you ❤️ Doesn’t it! And they say it’s not you, but it doesn’t change the fact that you still believe it is? Because my belief is that if you really love someone and want to be with them, there’s no such thing as the wrong time, you make it work then and there! And you see a future together, not seperate!
      Thank you so so much for the love and advice, it means more to me than you could imagine! ❤️

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  2. Aww I’m so sorry Jennie. 😦 You definitely deserve someone who commits to you fully! My heart is breaking for you. You deserve the best, and I’m glad that you aren’t together with him right now despite how much it hurts. ❤ ❤ ❤

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    1. Hey girlie it’s ok ❤️ I’m good! AB and I are still friends, and I’m feeling alot happier about things. Time will tell what happens or not but what I know for sure is I know my worth and I’m staying true to that! Thanks for all the love Courtney ❤️❤️❤️

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  3. Awwww my gosh, *swooooon* I love Chuck Bass. What a freakin’ heart throb!!! Lol but yes girl!!! You ARE worth more than that. WAY more. Sometimes people come into your life for a few good times, doesn’t mean they need to stay in it. You’re gonna find someone else to have better times with. ❤

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    1. Thanks so much for the love Mackenzie! Yeah you are 100% right. right now I just want to be on my own and find my true self, but I know the right man will come along eventually. Thanks so much hun ❤️❤️ Lots of love to you!

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