I recently discovered a picture of myself from when I was about 4 or 5 years old, this picture to be precise,
and it melted my heart.
I look so happy, carefree and over joyed with life. In this photo I am living my best life, with not a care in the world. Not a shred of self doubt, just happy.
As many of you may know if you’ve been keeping up with my blog this year, I haven’t had the greatest of times with my mental health in the past few months. I’m currently a lot lot better than I was which I am so thankful for and I can’t believe I’m even at where I’m at right now, because there was a time I didn’t even see how I was going to make it until my sisters wedding next year, or Christmas even. I was stuck in a dark place and I couldn’t see the light, but that’s a story for another day. But the point is, I was being so so hard on myself, drowning myself in so much negativity, and when I saw that picture of little me the other day I thought hold on a minute. How could I be doing this to myself? Beating myself up mentally on the daily and feeling so so awful, would I treat that little girl in the photo this way? That sweet, innocent, happy, carefree child just loving life in Barcelona, no I would not. The point is, that little girl is still me. Just all grown up. But I’m still that girl and I owe it to my sweet, precious, innocent younger self to be kind to myself now, the way I would be to my younger self. When I see this photo of myself, aged four or five, I am filled with SO much love, love for the girl that is ME! So how could I ever be so hard on myself when I remember my inner child. I wouldn’t hurt her the way I hurt myself now, yet she is still me, just the younger version so why on Earth have I been being so hard on myself? Tearing myself down and fighting with everything mentally, when I don’t deserve that! How can I hate myself after seeing myself at a younger age, so happy and full of life? It’s impossible, I owe it to that girl in the photo, absolutely loving life, to be kind to myself, to live my best life, to follow my dreams, to be kind to the world, to be happy, to love my family and friends and most importantly, to love myself.
Just as you should love yourself and your inner child too. ❤️