To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before #2

You. You were the first. And I have to laugh, because my younger self was wild. I really thought the boy I met whilst he was vacationing and I was living in Menorca was somehow, going to miraculously come searching for me and confess his undying love for me. After meeting him just about twice, and hooking up with him once. Okay J Lo, yeah, it’s evident I’ve always believed in miracles (and I always, always will, life is one big miracle)!

You. You were the first. And I wonder if you’d even remember me now? Do you ever think of me? Do I ever cross your mind? It can’t have been love (obviously), because I just got distracted thinkin’ bout another love as I write this. Oops, my bad, sorry. Won’t happen again… 😉

You were the first. 22 (or was it 24? I can’t even remember). Blonde. And an absolute dreamboat. I remember seeing you as I chilled by the pool, you strolled past and I thought you looked so cool with a chain around your neck LOL, you were a Summer fling, just about. And I knew nothing about You other than your first name, your job title (I think I recall, you were a builder, but, I can’t even remember properly now, I know it was something along those lines) and I knew the county where you lived at the time of meeting you, who knows, I wonder if you still live there now, or if you’ve moved elsewhere.

At the time, I thought you were the best looking guy I had ever met (yeah okay, I’m shallow) and I seriously rated myself for having been able to ‘pull’ you (I feel like I’d never use that term now, but I don’t know how else to describe it ha ha). The confidence boost I needed, it always made me feel a little smug that someone that good looking had fancied me back! You were a spice, or so I thought at the time. You must be about 29 now, I wonder if you’ve aged well… ha ha, just kidding. You seemed like a guy who took care of himself, I’m sure you’re looking perfectly handsome, and hopefully you’re happy. Maybe you’re even settled down with a wife now? Who knows? I guess I may never.

I day dreamed about you for hours after our last encounter. I was on the ferry, on my way back home moving back to England and all I could think about was You. You consumed me. I’ve always been a ‘hopeless’ (or lemme say hopeFUL’) romantic and I believe in the fairy tale. Not that I’m bothered now either way because it was absolutely nothing serious and so long ago, but I do wonder if the Universe will ever bring us back together again randomly, not romantically obvs (but I guess who knows, crazier things have happened), but just in general. Like how can someone who played such a significant role in my story never pop back up? Because you’ve given me a great story to tell, that’s for sure.

I wonder if you’d even recognise me if we bumped back into each other one day, or if I’d even recognise you! What a world we live in. Two ‘lovers’ who may walk past each other in the street one day, not even realising the history they share as they look into each others eyes, maybe just a glance in passing. WILD.

I guess I don’t have a lot to say about You. You were just a fantasy. The beginning of my ‘love life’ journey… or were you? I definitely experienced feelings for people before You, but until you, nothing was ever that ‘real’, if you know what I mean? Before You, I’d hardly even kissed anyone!!! Oh… you did give me some stories to tell, that’s for sure, and you made my life sound a whole lot more exciting when I got back home and reunited with my friends from the UK. Thanks to you, I had experiences. Thanks to you, I had a story.

So thank you Aaron. Am I bold enough to say your name? Heck yeah I am! You probably don’t remember me anyway, if by some crazy twist of fate you happen to stumble over this blog post, you may not even realise I’m talking about You. But HEY! Who knows what the future holds? Maybe the Universe will have our worlds collide once more, if only for the Bants and Wildness. We love a story.

Laters, baby.

To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before #1

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To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before blog series inspired by the Netflix film title ‘To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before’. 

11 thoughts on “To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before #2

  1. This is interesting, maybe I should do To all the girls I’ve loved before lol. I had many crushes on girls, but there is only one girl I truly loved. Have not seen her in over a year, I hope the universe will bring us back together. It sounds crazy but I feel she was the perfect girl for me, but time will tell of course. Do you ever worry that you may not find the perfect partner? It’s funny, Nice post, sorry to ramble about my problem here.

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  2. This was lovely to read! It definitely reminds me of something I would write. Thanks for sharing your thoughts! It does make me wonder where we all end up! Haha. That would be so crazy if you all did cross paths and you realize it or not realize it!

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  3. Lovedlovedloved this post! It was deep & humorous at the same time. Super well-written, Jennie! Life truly is one big miracle, isn’t it? I had never thought of it like that. Wow. ♡ & yes to being a ‘hopeful romantic’– not a hopeless one! It truly is crazy to think you could walk past each other & never know… what a world! Cannot wait to read your next installment in this series. 😉

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    1. Thank you so much Hunida! It means a lot ❤️ Thank you so so much that’s the best comment I could ever receive hehe! Omg it really is! I love thinking of it like that 😍😍😍 ah exciting to think!! Hehe thanks hun! Isn’t it wild! I love it! Thank you so much hun!!! Hopefully it’ll be on its way soon hehe ❤️

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  4. I freaking adored the first edition of this post and I bloody love the second just as much!! You are so real and relatable and your posts always feel like chatting to a friend. Also you go girl, saying his name!! You are a queen!xxx

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