Hello, my loves.
Wow, I’m doing a year on style post, gosh, it feels a little weird.
It’s more actually a ‘year and three months’ on, because today I’m going to be reflecting on a blog post I shared on March 1st, 2019. WOW.
Phew. When I wrote that post, I wasn’t in the best place mentally. And I am in such amazement when looking back, how much a year changes things. How different I feel. How much happier I am, how I’m in a better place. It’s so crazy isn’t it? Life is such a magical roller-coaster, and I seriously can’t believe how much growth I have experienced over the past year. It feels so so good.
REMINDER – If you’re not feeling so great right now, it does get better. I’m proof right?
Anyway, being that on 1st March 2019 my Mental Health was not feeling fabulous, I wanted to have a little detox, hence why I wrote the post ‘4 Ways I’m Detoxifying My Body For A Better State Of Mind’.
I felt inspired to talk a little about this post today, and where I am now. If I stuck to my goals etc etc, so let’s go.
RIGHT. So the first thing on the detox list was cutting out meat, which here I am today, still a vegetarian and I can’t see myself ever going back, if only going forward to the day where I have more and more vegan days. I don’t know if I’ll ever be fully vegan, it’s something that a part of me, my highest self maybe, would like to achieve, but also, I LOVE chocolate, and I’m not at that stage yet where I’m ready to give that part of me up. Though I do love a vegan day here and there, I did quite well last month really but I haven’t had a vegan day in probably a few weeks now, so that’s definitely on the cards to happen again soon. I’ll put it in the diary haha.
Vegan treat recommendations – NOMO Creamy Chocolate Bar, Tesco Free From Chocolate, Ben & Jerry’s Chocolate Fudge Brownie Vegan Ice Cream, Tortilla Crisps, Eat Real Lentil Chips & Veggie Straws.
Anyway, the same month I started this detox I ate meat maybe once or twice due to circumstances however this only proved to me how much personally, meat is not good for me. For my own mental health, cutting out meat has made such a difference and on my conscience, I feel so much clearer for being a vegetarian.
I love being vegetarian and believe it’s only a positive growth for me from here, being vegetarian makes me feel more connected to nature and Mother Earth’s babies, as I feel my beautiful loving bond deepen with the beautiful animals of this world! I am so grateful to be veggie, and this is definitely a step I’m glad I’ve finally, after so many years of consideration and attempts, committed to!
Am I gonna say it again? Yes- I love being a vegetarian!
Okay. Now on to number 2. Drink. Alcohol. This is not something I have cut out, and since writing the original post I had a horrendous experience of being so drunk, I felt the worst I’ve ever felt the following day. It wasn’t nice. That was in April last year, and after that night I decided to not drink again. Or at least not get drunk. I didn’t drink for a while, but then I started a little with some alcohol with the intent to only drink, but not get drunk. Maybe to loosen up a little and to relax, but not to take it too far to the point where I felt so bad, with beer fear and whatnot going on. This lasted pretty well, though I did get drunk in December and I definitely started drinking more between the months of Christmas up until March (well, I did go to Vegas LOL). This hasn’t affected my mental health, though I’ve still definitely done funny silly things under the influence of alcohol since drinking again, you know, just the usual drunk texting hahaha. These things happen! However, since being in lockdown, I haven’t really drunk too much. I’ve had about two kopparberg’s and a couple of mouthfuls of prosecco. I love not drinking and not having to worry about the effects of alcohol, and of course the perks of no hangovers etc, and going forward I intend to only drink in celebration and to cheers to life, but to know my limits and only have a couple of drinks so I still remain sober / if not just a little more relaxed. Nothing too much at all.
Now, number 3. The pill.
I originally planned to stop taking my birth control pill as part of my detox because, I just didn’t want to put it in my body anymore. I wanted to feel more natural, you know? Have natural periods and just, no unnecessary chemicals or whatever in me. All part of the detox. Anyway, after a couple of weeks I remembered why I went on the pill in the first place – to help with my mood swings. I went on the pill around aged 15 because I was such a stroppy teenager, this was supposed to help all that and make me feel better. Because of this I decided to go back on the pill, as my mental health wasn’t great I thought gosh, I don’t want to do anything to make it worse i.e. mood swings etc. Now remember, I am no doctor or expert, I am only speaking from my own experiences here! So please don’t take my word as gospel and always seek medical advice etc etc if you’re thinking of going on the pill, or have your own queries, and do what is best for you. I can only listen to my body but please seek medical advice if you have any queries etc of your own!!!
Anyway, I started taking the pill again but for a long time, I’ve been conflicted. Should I come off? I’m not sure it’s right for me etc etc… I’m not great with the pill, I’m irresponsible, I forget to take it or I take it too many days in a row, it’s just a nightmare having to deal with it if I’m honest, you know, I don’t have time for it. Travelling on holidays etc etc puts me out of routine, I might oversleep, or go to bed early, I just don’t like the pill and finally after my trip to Vegas I knew in my body it was right to finally stop taking the pill and I haven’t looked back. I’m currently on my second natural period since coming off the pill so it hasn’t been too long, but I’m so happy to not be taking it anymore. It’s just an overwhelming feeling of ‘this is right for me’, you know? I’ve been debating coming off for so long, I knew it was the right decision and I feel so much clearer for it.
I mean, I don’t know what I’m going to do when I get a fella because you know, I don’t want a baby yet but all I know for sure is, natural periods are the way forward. I’ve learnt a little about Spirituality and Moontime (periods) recently, how it’s all linked etc so this makes me so keen to just, be one with my body and bleed naturally you know, with nothing in my body to affect or change that. I know there’s an app you can use which tracks your fertility etc, so I might have to look into that. I’m unsure why I’m talking about it right now though because hello, ya girl is SINGLE but we’ve got to look to the future and we must have hope that I will meet my dream man. LOL. But anyway again what I’m saying, natural hormones and periods are for me, yayayayayay.
Okay then lastly on the list, no meaningless sex. I mean, I haven’t even been able to have meaningless sex if I wanted to this last year LOL. I’ve never felt so single. After August Boy, I went on ONE date throughout the whole of 2020 which clearly, didn’t work out! And, really, there just hasn’t been such an opportunity. I don’t know why, I’ve often met people in clubs before but I guess the Universe just helped me out with this one and it’s been the right thing for me, I haven’t been given any opportunity to have meaningless sex and it’s GOOD. I am glad. I plan on sticking to it!
What I know is now, probably a little inspired by Jane The Virgin (yes I’m obsessed), is that I really want to just, take things slow. I don’t know, dating’s a complicated game, I want to do the right thing, and I want to be sure of what I want. In my first Breathwork session, I wrote ‘I will never give my body to someone who doesn’t deserve it again’ and I must honour this, so yeah. I guess, through circumstances, the Universe has helped me and I haven’t had any meaningless sex. Hurrah!
I don’t know what the future holds, I’m not about to sit here and promise I’ll never have a one night stand or a random hook up again because never say never, but I know I don’t want to just have meaningless sex anymore, especially with people who treat me badly. I guess it doesn’t even come down to meaningless sex, if someone treats me badly, then they shouldn’t be in my life anyway and I need to honour that and set proper boundaries now, which I definitely have been doing. If you read my January reflections from this year then you’ll know that a guy messed me about a tiny bit (I say tiny bit because we’d not actually met – Online dating tings etc), long story short we arranged a date, he said he was excited then went really cold and bailed on the date last minute, only to pop up again a few days later asking if we could rearrange. Your girl said no, hehe! So I’m definitely knowing my worth and setting my boundaries!
And as with when I meet someone who I do really like and who likes me back, I’m definitely going to try and play it differently this time. Sleeping with people straight away clearly hasn’t worked for me in the past, (not to say it never does for anyone, it’s a completely personal choice and all about what makes YOU happy), but this time I want to take things slow, and take the time to really get to know the person I’m potentially entering into a relationship with and know they truly deserve me, and that they truly respect and honour me, and I feel the same for them so that we can come together in love, union and perfect harmony with a mutual love and respect for one another. Meaningful, magical sex, hehe. ❤️
I hope you enjoyed reading this very personal & TMI detox update haha, at the very least at least it’s given you the opportunity to have a little nose – I for one know I love a good post like this.
Have you detoxed in anyway lately?
What are your thoughts on what I’ve talked about here?
And most importantly, how ARE you?
Let’s have a chat! Be sure to share all your thoughts in the comments below if you so desire!
As always thank you so much for reading,
have a blessed day,
lots of love,