May You Be Forever Free | ❤

Hello my gorgeous blogging friends, how are you today? I literally just sat down to write a blog post, all about a completely different topic, but I realised, it’s been so long since we actually sat down and had a chat. I’ve posted the odd poem here and there, but I haven’t been as active on my blog lately, and that’s okay, but it felt so weird to be jumping straight into writing another blog post without saying ‘hey – long time no speak’.

Honestly, I don’t know where this post is going to lead, but lets just roll with it.

I have nothing to say?

Honestly – I do have things to say, but the truth is – I’ve struggled with self trust recently, I say recently, but not so much the past week or so because it’s something I’ve acknowledged and been focusing on – hence why I was about to jump in and write a blog post on self love – that will be coming soon of course but gosh – it feels good to just chat! I can’t believe I haven’t been blogging so much lately – I almost feel a little emotional and a tear / tears forming in my eyes because I can’t believe I let this slip away from me, but honestly, these things happen as they are meant. It’s okay to take a break. We don’t have to be go go go all the time, and if you’re not feeling it, you’re not feeling it.

Everything happens in Divine Timing, exactly as it’s meant. Just trust – what is for you will never pass you, right? 🙂

So I’m back, with a chatty, go with the flow blog post today and again I COULD CRY because it feels so good. I can’t believe I wasn’t even going to write this, but now I’m letting the words flow from me and it’s like, I am releasing and getting my mojo back. Honestly, I just want to tell you that if you’re not feeling yourself recently, it’s FINE – better days are coming. and I’m okay with saying that – a few days ago, weeks ago or whatever I WOULD BE WORRIED about saying that, because I would worry ‘is this the right message to send out?’ but fuck it! My words are mine and I know I have good intentions and I just want to remind you that everything is going to be okay – more than okay! Trust me – I’ve been down before and I’ve come out the other side – so you’re going to be more than okay too!

Don’t doubt yourself MY LOVE! YOU ARE WORTHY!

I always feel like it’s the things that we are scared to say, that people relate to the most – so that’s why I am here, honouring my authentic self – I’ve shared blog posts before and I’ve worried about sharing them, because they’re ‘risky’ or whatever but honestly, they always get such positive, caring & considerate feedback and my loves LOVE that I’ve shared them – so your girl is going to be BOLD here and just go with it.

In the words of Eminem – ‘I’m not afraid’ 😛

Anyway – where have I been, what have I been up to?

Honestly – not a lot

Chilling with my friends, walking walking walking, being with my family – gosh I can’t wait for this pandemic to be over, for things to get back to how they should be. Truthfully, I think ‘fear’ keeps us in a low vibration, and that’s not to say don’t be safe and cautious when needed, but the best thing we can do for our health is to be HAPPY, get sunshine, be free. I felt so anxious recently because I had this throat issue where I kept getting phlegm on my chest whenever I woke up in the morning and it was driving me mad because I was so anxious about Covid – not even having it myself but in case I passed it on to anyone, I was isolating without even having a test, having tests and them coming back negative, I was a wreck! Okay, maybe not that bad – but I even didn’t go into work after a negative test came back – negative, and my Mum had what I thought was a ‘persistent cough’ but she’d argue that it wasn’t. Don’t get me wrong, I was being responsible in some ways because obviously you’ve got to be safe and respect and look out for other people – but there really was nothing wrong with me. Anyway – what I’m saying is, one night I decided enough is enough, I couldn’t keep going round in circles with this – I focused on good health, and didn’t give into the anxiety thoughts, and now I’m definitely better than I have been. I’m not perfect, but all I’m trying to say is, focus on the good, focus on good health, good wealth, good joy and good energy, because that’s where happiness lies.

I feel like I’ve kind of run out of words now… I don’t know where else I want this blog post to go, but I’m going to applaud myself for being brave and trusting myself – because honestly, what resonates resonates, and only we can control how we feel, and how we choose to live our lives. I know there are outside circumstances, but I truly believe that we have the power to create our happiest realities, and everything we need lies within us.

Trust yourself my love,

may you be forever free.

I love you

Jennie

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8 Comments

  1. Freedom and feeling free is beautiful! I wonder if anyone ever is in a state where they feel complete freedom all the time? I’m sorry to hear you’ve been doubting yourself but those moments are only temporary and will pass. Hope you have a lovely Easter and treat yourself to some choccy xx

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    1. I agree!!!! Who knows? I think, even in the moments that you do feel it, just enjoy. True freedom is living for yourself – doing what makes you happy and expressing yourself – maybe that’s what it is to be free *most of the time* but I don’t know if anything’s ever ‘all of the time’ because life is a journey hehe!!! Maybe like 95% of the time?? Thank you my gorgeous beautiful friend!! So true my love. Yes girl and you too! Love you ❤ you're a beaut! ❤

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      1. I agree I don’t think someone can be on 100% of the time, we all go through different emotions and experiences but like you say if you do what makes you happy that’s such a big help! ❤

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  2. Jennie!! I love this post, its honest and emotional and REAL ❤ Girl, YOU ARE WORTHY TOO. Let out all your feelings, all your anxieties!! The world is on its way to getting better, and one day we will all be out in the sun again, laughing, hugging and living our lives with COVID a thing of the past 😀 Sending you all the best ❤

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  3. I love posts like this so much, I often worry about the content I am putting out and whether it is worthy of posting so reading this is so comforting to know I am not the only one who is struggling with self trust! This is YOUR blog and you are allowed to post anything at all you want, I absolutely adore reading anything you produce, it is always so amazing. It’s almost like having a catch up with a bestie! Im sorry to hear you were struggling angel girl, but so so pleased you are feeling better – good times are on its way!! Thank you for being so honest and raw, you are so worthy of everything. Lots and lots of love xxxx

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  4. Girl I relate to this SO much! I have been more quiet lately just because of some family stuff and I haven’t anted to dim anyones light, but sometimes opening up actually doesn’t dim anyone’s light but connects us and we need that! I also one hundred percent agree with you about fear. We need a healthy dose of it (balance) but so may times we let it stop us, instead of driving us which isn’t good. I am sending you so much love and I hope you had an amazing Easter! Love you sweet lady! ❤

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